I sent the below confession out via my newsletter about a month ago and I got a lot of replies back with many people relating to the struggle between wanting to do everything and looking after your own self. Therefore, I thought I’d share it on the blog and expand on it a little bit more.
You are probably wondering why I have a picture of people hanging in a hammock instead of my usual pretty cake pictures and here is why…
For a long time (since cake took over my life) I convinced myself that I was too busy to look after my health and wellbeing. From the moment I woke up every morning to the minute my head hit the pillow late at night, it was all about my business. I hardly saw my friends and family and when I did I was only half present. Mostly because I was tired and partly because my mind was still on cakes. I told myself that I was doing all this because I loved cake and that the love and passion for it will keep me going. After all, that was why I got into business. But after years of running around in that circle, I was exhausted.
It was then that I realised that deep down I had a bigger picture in mind. I didn’t know it when I started but it had always been there – it was the driving force beneath the love and passion I had for cakes. Which by the way if you are interested, it’s freedom to live the life that I want to. I know it may sound vague, but it is that simple to me. But for some reason, I was stuck and I was getting sick all the time. Someone walks past me and sneezes and BAM I’m sick. I knew it was because I was not looking after myself which caused my immune system to get weaker, I was tired all the time and so I could not work as efficiently as I would have liked.
For ages, I convinced myself that I could get healthier any time. I could go outside to walk and run and that is free. I don’t need to join a gym or anything. I could work on this getting fit thing myself. I am sure there are lots of You Tube videos out there showing me how! And so I continued to make excuses for YEARS. “I’ll look for some You Tube videos tomorrow”, “After the next trip… then I’ll come home and start”, “the gym is too expensive”, “all the fit people will just judge me at the gym”… and the list went on and on. It’s amazing how when you are secretly resisting something, you get so good at making up every excuse under the sun – and believing it too!
To be honest, I don’t know why I was resisting the fact that my health should be a priority. Maybe I was lazy and could not see any immediate benefit to me spending time getting fit when I could easily spend that time on my business. Maybe I was not ready or maybe I was just in denial. Who knows?
Then sometime at the beginning of last year, I came to the realisation – I had the freedom to choose and to MAKE the time to live the life I want to live and to focus my my happiness and wellbeing – so I did. I took up rock climbing, got the dog I’ve always wished to have and joined a gym.
Joining the gym truly motivated me to MAKE and COMMIT the time to look after my health and wellbeing. As a result of investing a couple of hours a week at the gym, I now have found myself less tired, more resilient, more efficient and most importantly having a clearer pathway towards my goal. So although in the first couple of weeks, I didn’t see any immediate benefit to looking after myself, it now has well and truly paid off.
That picture is up there because aerial yoga was the very first class I attended at the gym and because I wanted it to encourage you to take a step forward and challenge yourself to overcome your excuses. As the saying goes …
By the way, if you ever get a chance to try out aerial yoga, you should do it. It’s kind of fun getting to jump around, hang upside side down and do poses that you have not done since you were a kid.